#5


Ukuhlala noSlie kuphela bekumnandi shame. Even though ekhaya
bebekhalela irent. Ngamanye amaxesha bendimane ukulala kwaMondli.
Besingekenzi nto ke ngase zingubeni. He was still sweet though, esisa
eskolweni ekseni whenever he could. I had fallen for Mondli and was ready
to give him my all..


It was April, ndibuya ePasikeni. Njengesiqhelo uMondli undilande eDurban
wandisa kwakhe. Bekuse early nokwana. Undishiyile esithi uyothenga
ukutya, ndasala ndikhulula, ndsnxiba nje iskipha sakhe.
Ubuye sekurhatyele, empashampasha, enga phathanga nokokutya.
Xandimbuza ba uphuma phi wandiphendula ngelandishiya ndikhamisile
ilihlo eli. It was my first time seeing him so livid. He went to take a shower,
mna ndabe ndizenzela isonka namaqanda. Bendino kumoyika okukhona..
When he got out the shower, he came to me in the lounge, in his birth suit.
I was shocked. Throughout our relationship, I never saw him this naked.
Totally naked. Ndiwakhuphe onke awomehlo am adark brown.


Fike wandincamisa ngeyona ndlela emangazayo. Ubendibamba bamba, athi
kundiqinisa, abe engayekanga nokundikhama amabele. This was more than
what we used to do before. He made us both stand, taking off myclothes. I
was in a trance. I was really scared. I know I said I was ready, but I just
couldn't get rid of the doubt in my head, and mostly, after the way he was
when he returned, I was scared of telling him to stop. What if I infuriated
him? yhooo, ndaze ndazifaka ke kodwa nam.
His hand went down my womanhood, ndaminca.


Mondli:"vula baby". I ignored him, and he picked me up and took me to the
bedroom. He gently laid me on my back and hovered over me, positioning
himself between my legs. I could feel his card. I felt something move up my
chesttto my throat. The man wax gifted and the thought of him inside of me
traumatised me. He kept trailing kisses all over my face, neck, breasts. My
upper body nje. He begged me to trust him and I nodded. He was touching
my womanhood. Making small circles and I must admit, I was starting to
enjoy it. Something about what he was doing felt so good. I felt like I wax
going to pee. I told him and he told me to relax. He crawled down and I felt
his head on my womanhood. OMG!! was he sniffing me? Still on those
thoughts, I felt him take me in his mouth. He was sucking me. I squealed
from the shock and he chuckled. He continued doing what he was doing and
I couldn't help but moan.


Me:"ndiphethwe ngumchamo"
Mondli:"relax babe. let it all out"
Me:"hay sies, andizo chamela bhedi mna. Ndiyeke ndiyochama"
Mondli:"make me" he went deeper and faster with his toungue, and I felt his
finger tickling my clit. It felt really good. It wax great. All of a sudden he
stopped and looked at me straight in the eyes. He came up, and sucked on
my necck for the longest time. I felt all surrendered. I was ready for
anything now, but mostly, I wanted him inside of me. He positioned himself
and tried inserting himself inside of me, but I jumped, crying out. It stung, a
lot.


Mondli:"trust me. relax" I inhaled one long breathe, then sighed and nodded.
He kept crying and I was in tears. He would kiss them every now and then,
but that didn't help with the pain. Why didn't anyone ever tell me losing
your viginity was this bad?

Finally, he got in. I was in thee most excrutiating pain and he was enjoying.
He kept apologising and for the first time, I heard him declare his love for
me. Thinking back, I am not sure what made me cry even more. The pain,
or him telling me he loved me. After what felt like years and years of pain, I
felt him move faster, vibrate, and then BAAAM!! He stopped and kissed my
forehead. He was all sweaty and panting like a horse which had just won a
race..
He removed himself and went to get a went towel to clean me up. My
womanhood was on fire. The pain was unbearable.

Mondli:"how about I get you some painkillers and wet the towel with warm
water?" I just nodded. I was somehow hurt. It felt as though he is used th o
breaking virgins and then getting them painkillers and warm,wet towels.
That night we cuddled in bed and he held me till Morning. The next day I
was supposed to go to school and my uniform was at the my place. My
body felt like I had been hit by a train.

Mondli suggested I stay in that day because of the way I felt. I areed and
we spent the whole day watching movies and fooling around. No sex
though. He understood I was still traumatised from the previous night.
Later we went to get my school stuff, for I wax going to school the next day.
Ok, the next morning he took me to school like any other day and gave me
a stack of money rolled. I gave him a confused look and he just smiled and
he asked me to give him my account number. I did as asked and got off,
heading to the loo. I needed to count the roll of money before going to find
Slie and the other girls. R1200? haibo!! The biggets amount I ever got from
Mondli was R500, so this was shocking. Was he paying me for sleeping
with him? Now I was hurt. I wanted to cry, but controlled myself. I checked
myself in the mirror and went to find Slie..


After school, Mondli surprised me and came to pick us up. He was with
Sthe. Heh, hadn't seen him in a long while. We exchanged greetings and
Sthe was telling me of how glowing I was. I could feel my cheecks changing
colour. It was as though he knew I wasn't pure anymore.

Mondli:"Slie, do you feel like eating out?" yhuu, yavuya eyam ichommie
yavuma ngoko nangoko.
Mondli:"ok, so am going to drop you off at your place to change and Sthe
will pic you up. We are going to Spur"
Slie:"ok".
Ok, we first dropped Sthe off in his flat, at Berg Street, then headed to
Mondli's place so I could change.


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It was June and I was writing my last paper. Mondli and I were now
regularly engaging on sex and I was now also enjoying it. I was going home
and Mondli was going to drive me as usual.
Hay ke emakhaya bendinconywa ukutyeba and nam shame nam
bendiyibona lonto. 28 besele undibamba kakhulu, into ethetha ukuba
ndizonyanzeleka ndingene ku30 xandi ngazihoyi kwange thuba.
Holidays were great, but ziphele sendinento yophathwa yinyongo. Ndayisela
iepson salt but still, bendisenento yokuphalaza ekuseni, kodwa bendiyifihla
ekhaya.
Mondli and I were using protection, but the first time we slept together we
didn't and tat was depressing me. I couldn't be pregnant. I just couldnt.
How was I going to tell Mondli about this? Abazali bona? I felt like dying.


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I have been back at PMB for 2 weeks, and I am assuming am +/- 3Months.
Not even Slie knows about my pregnancy. I was hiding the morning
sickness.As for Mondli, I was doing all I could to avoid him, but I was
failing because it was Friday and I was to spend the weekend with him.
Past 7pm he came to pick me up. He had bought Seafood for supper and
right there and then, I puked, in his car. I was so embarrassed. Mondli
quickly pulled off and ran to my side. I was panting and teary.

Mondli:"hey, what's wrong?"
Me:"I'm sorry, will clean this up"
Mondli:"you know what, let's rush home, you need to rest. Will take the car
to the car wash tomorrow morning". I just nodded and he drove to his
house. He ran me a bath and got me all comfortable in bed.
Uyimoshe ngondiphakela laFish. Ndiphume ndibhabha ukuya etoilet, naye
wabe eleqeka emva kwam. Hayi ke, ndathulula. He brought me some water
and I was grateful. I rinsed my mouthand asked him to get rid of the food.
He obliged and sprayed some Lavender Air spray to kill the seafood odour. I
got back in bed and asked him to make me a sandwich, with no cheese and
he got to it.


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Mondli:"Are you pregnant?" My head shot up. He was staring at me as
though daring me to deny it. I did the only thing I could at the moment and
cried.
Mondli:"how far are you?" I shrugged my shoulders. Come to think of it,
ever since I lost my virginity, I never had my periods. Shit, how could I have
had not noticed?
I cried more. I was really pregnant.
Mondli:"sshhh baby, it's ok. Tomorrow we will go see a Dr". I just nodded.
Now, how was I going to tell Mr and Mrs Mlambi?